| Im back, from outer space.
Actually i've been here this entire time, but there has been a million things going through my head.
I've decided to move to Nashville, almost against my will. If that makes sense? I have a calling from God and i am answering. If you have never felt that then you couldn't understand what im going through. And if you have no interest in hearing me proclaim my faith, then I would stop reading now... Because i've seen the true Christ is and its beautiful. I've only seen a small amount of this, but i was so overcome with joy, peace, and excitement that im desiring more. Im desiring this so much that im leaving everything behind and going somewhere i know nothing about. This Christ i found wasn't the political, marketed , in the name of Christ jargon we see on TV, but it was the Christ of love, kindness, joy, and most of all peace that we read about in the New Testament.
I've learned to say im not a Christian, but a follower of Christ. This is more defining. Im learning to love, to be humble, and to be more forgivving. Im learning that the spirit is with me always and that I am a testament to Gods love. Even though im horrible at all of these things, im learning how to do them better.
Im moving to Nashville having only spent two whole days there in my entire life. I know nothing about the town and I dont know any people. I dont know where i'll live or what's going to happen. I'm going to work with a church there, knowing they don't have all the answers i want. Just that im being called there, so im answering. The bible says to take up your cross. I know by writing all this im sort of tooting my own horn, " look at me" sort of thing, but i feel my friends need to know this.
So this is the bottom line: The truth is, im crazy, who listens to a voice in his head telling him to move away and leave everything behind? Im not going to join a war, im not going to a school, im going to just exist for awhile and see what happens. Hoping I can find the doors that God is offering me. Well the truth is that to follow Christ in this world is crazy, but the greatest victory is to look upon a world, where every trace of God is being erased, to see this, and still believe.
Over the next year I feel i will probably be going through a radical change, as i merge into a life serving God. I feel i might appear and act differnt to some of you, still recognizable, but differnt. My one hope and prayer is that i might strip away everything and learn to live a life that isn't about me, but is about lifting others up to show them the true Christ and his love for us all.
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| It finally happened. I've seen people post about it online and the horrors it brings. This is crossing the line.
My grandmother added me on facebook. I havn't excepted it.
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| Tonight I went to the gym after I got off work. Got a locker and stored my things. Did my work of 2 1/2 miles running and weights. Changed back and rode my scooter home.
When i got home I realized my pants were not in my bag. I begin to look frantic for them, thinking maybe they fell out of my bag. All of this builds up to a sick feeling that they fell out of my bag riding home. So I hop back on my scooter and ride back down to the gym. Check around the locker to no avail.
" balls" I said. this sucks. Some deviant stole my pants! I ask the counter lady if she saw anybody walk out with a extra pair of pants. " No I sure havn't" she replied.
I've excepted my defeat and turn to leave. I look down to tie my shoe and notice my left pant leg is tucked inside my sock. To this revelation I found my pants. I had them on the entire time. Fuck my life.
dedicated to ADR
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| today at work I was having a conversation about keeping it causal with ladies. During the conversation one the participants asked me, " Why does everything you talk about somehow go back to Lord of the Rings?" to which I replied, " Let me answer your questing with a question, " shut the hell up"
game...set...match...check-mate
Cornerstone is really soon!!!!!!!!!!!!
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